THE COUPLE

I am aged around 3 and lying on a mattress towards the back of the living room in my grandparents' house. There are 2 mattresses in that room and 3 other children being abused at the same time, boys and girls.

My grandfather instructed me to lie on my back for the next two people who were going to be a man and a woman. The man straddled my chest. He used his legs to pin my arms to my side. The woman opened my mouth and held it open for him, for his penis. My grandmother wandered over to look and exhort me to behave, which meant, don't cause any problems, don't gag, do whatever they want. The man masturbated for a while and then put his penis in my mouth which was still being held open by his female accomplice, who was holding my head still with her other hand, so I couldn't turn away. I gagged as soon as the penis entered my mouth, I gagged and gagged. I couldn't stop and I couldn't help it. As I gagged I was aware of saliva build up in the back of my mouth. I began to feel that I was going to drown in my own saliva. And then he began to come. He ejaculated into my mouth to start with, then jerked it all over my face. I tried to spit the semen out of my mouth but they both said "no you don't, swallow it, swallow it all" and used their fingers to push it back into my mouth.

I remember the feeling of the semen slowly dripping down the side of my face into my ears. I remember it up my nose and stinging in my eyes. I remember the stickiness in my hair. It was disgusting. They both laughed at me and left me in that mess while my grandfather came over to wipe the worst off me with the skanky towel and prepare me for the next lot of abusers. While he roughly wiped me down I got a telling off because I had gagged and tried to get out of swallowing the semen. He didn't seem to get that I couldn't help it. I felt really bad because I knew I didn't meet up to expectations. I'd tried my best but it wasn't good enough.